So I'm a little bit stuck in this situation right now, can anyone please give me a solution ?

I really need your help and I'm begging for some advice on how can i bear with this. I'm currently 19 years old and I'm a Vietnamese American Guy and I live in the southeast states. I'm really desperate and I want to marry this girl from my native country vietnam, My mother is arranging me to marry a girl because i can't get a girlfriend on my own. No Girl here likes me but the girls in Vietnam like me even though I have scoliosis, people here call me the hunchback of my city and call me a fugly. My Mother told me to finish college, I'm in a 2 semester course to get a certification in pharmacy technician. My mother says she won't let me meet the girl or let me get married until I have finished college. I wasted a whole year of not going to college since I graduated high school of last summer because I'm desperate and I have depression. Seeing everyone with their girlfriend makes me mad and feel like i want to commit suicide. People also call me gay constantly too when I'm Straight. Can anyone please help me out ?? I'm really stuck and I don't know what to do and I wished I was born without bi polar disorder. I'm not lying and all of this is true, I really wish someone was here to help me out. I don't have any friends left because all of them went to college out of state.